Foong Speaks Her Mind

I remember when I used to get a full night’s sleep without disturbances. I get my full 8 hours beauty sleep. I could wake up early. I was not sleepy all the time.

Now…I can’t remember the last time I had a full night’s undisturbed sleep.

My son is almost three now but he is still waking up in the middle of the night but not for milk. Mostly, it is because of the weather.

Yep. We live in an area where it is quite cold at night regardless of whether it rained the whole day or it was darn hot the whole day. So, when he gets too cold, he’d wake up and start calling for me. And I have to go over to his room (yes, he sleeps in his own room!) and camp over at his room for the night.

This has been happening so much and on such a daily basis, it is wearing me down. For one thing, I work late into the night most days. It’s due to my part-time job as freelance writer and it involves a lot of online work. And by that, I mean A LOT of work in looking for jobs. I check up on job boards and etc to bid on projects. Nowadays, it is lagging quite a bit since India is spoiling our market. They are blardy bidding $2 per hour and even $1 per article rates. Blardy crazy. I sure as hell am not gonna write 100s of words for a measly $1 or $2! So, a lot of ‘buyers’ are choosing those with these ultra low stupid bids.

On top of that, I have my blogging to keep up and several other websites to maintain. Also, I have two major personal projects I am working on but hardly have time to really ‘work on it’. Yep, I have obviously bitten off more than I can chew at this moment in time. I realised that and now, I am considering letting one or two of my blogs just die off…but I don’t know which one to ‘kill’ off. Yet.

But I digress.

So, I usually work till 2am to 3am everyday and my son will wake up around 3.30am or 5am (whatever time when it gets cold) and I had just dragged myself into bed. So, in the end, I’d drag myself over to his room and just collapse onto his kingsize mattress (yeah, his bed is much much bigger than our puny Queen size bed) and sleep there.

That’s why I am sleeping apart from my husband most days. Sometimes, he’d also go over to my son’s room and we’d all three sleep there with my son in between of us. So, yeah, we sleep apart A LOT. And I realise this is not that good for any marriage.

I really don’t know what to do anymore. Short of moving my son to our room, it seems like I will have to sleep in two rooms every night, a few hours in my room and a few hours in my son’s room. I shudder to think what would have happened if a second child comes along.

I’d probably have to ‘permanently’ move into their room!

I know, many seasoned parents will say that all this will pass and I will look back and wish they would need me as much as my son does now before he becomes a sullen, angst-filled, rebellious teenager who’d rather be dead than be seen with his mom.

But for now, I barely have five hours of sleep every day for the past year or so. I think I am more like a walking zombie by now and sometimes, I don’t even know what I am typing here anymore…. Even now, I am so darn sleepy, the words are swimming before my eyes even as I tyep…

Zzzzzz…….

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I don’t know why is it that I like to do this in the middle of the night or should I say, early in the morning? Perhaps it is the quiet silence of the night. The peace. And the only sounds I hear is the quiet mutterings of those deep in slumber.

And then my stomach starts growling.

I get hit by this sudden urge and craving.

I simply MUST have it.

The need is so strong.

So unrelenting.

I gave in.

And so…

I transformed this glob

Into this fabulous, rich, dense, thick, sweet and absolutely satisfying…

Five Minute Chocolate Cake served with ice cream!

Yes, you read right. It is the much talked about 5-minute chocolate cake and I finally tried it out! Want to have the recipe? Want to know how I made it? Wait lar. I’ll be posting it in my food blog soon.

All I can say is that I am SO GLAD I found this recipe. Now, I can make chocolate cakes within minutes without all the hassle and yes, the serving is just nice for one person. How good is that?

Yummy.

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I know of some couples who had to spend tens of thousands just to get pregnant and have their own children and then we have people who are gifted with children and yet, they treat these innocent lives as mere nothings…

Who could ever hurt something so innocent and adorable like this baby?

We have the occasional baby dumping cases where newborns are dumped in rubbish dumps, in drains, buried, etc…what the hell. Please be responsible over your actions, BOTH of you. You wanna have sex, then use contraception instead of producing unwanted babies and throwing these innocent lives away as if they are merely dolls! These are human lives we are talking about. Even if you can’t afford to take care of the child, please do  humane like giving them up to the welfare department instead of leaving the poor child to die.

And then we have the irresponsible mother who lets her small child run around in the middle of the fu*king road! I saw this with my very own eyes. The child is not older than three and running in front of the mother in the middle of the road. A motorcycle came and almost hit the child but luckily the motorist stopped in time. And what was the mother’s response? She scolded the child and then walked off, leaving the child to run after her.

They are still in the middle of the road, mind you. And that’s not the worse of it. She walked straight into an office without even waiting to see if the child was following her. That is the height of irresponsibility!

And then today, I saw in the news that some irresponsible parent had dropped off his barely two year old son with a babysitter and disappeared.

What the hell is wrong with parents like this?

Why have children in the first place if you can’t even take care of them?

Never heard of contraception is it? Don’t know how to use the condom is it? Or you’ve never heard of a condom before?

It’s that rubber thing you use on your ‘instrument’ before you get jiggy on bed. And this is what it looks like

Condom

This useful rubber thingy is not only a great contraception tool. It keeps away AIDS and other STDs too. See, it has so many functions. Not only to keep those pesky li’l children from popping up when you don’t need them.

And that’s not all. It comes in different brands, different types, different colours and even different flavours! There are so many choices in the market, you can never say there’s not enough choice of condoms.

Don’t know how to use one?

Are you serious? Then you have no business in having sex at all. Do you even know what fits where and how to do it at all?

Why don’t you just stick to masturbation, eh? All you need are tissues and you don’t have to worry about screaming babies and worry about finding a babysitter so that you could drop off your child there and make a run for it.

Really. Some parents should just remain childless.

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