Writing.

Work.

Spouse.

People.

Idiots.

Sometimes, I feel like throwing in the blardy effing towel, tell every single idiot in this world to blardy eff off, pack up and leave.

And then I just plod on. Suffering. Stressing. Wishing I’m dead.

SIGH.

I am now the sole breadwinner of the family. (Who says breadwinner anymore? ) oh heck, whatever it is, I am the one with the sole steady income right now while my husband is still searching for a job.

AND

I am still the main one to take care of the kids after work.

I am still the one to make sure their school bags are packed, their tumblers washed and filled, etc,etc.

I am still the one to make sure laundry is in the wash.

I am still the one to put my kids to bed and sit with them till they fall asleep.

I am still the one to make sure they eat, to make sure they bathe, change, brush teeth,etc,etc.

I am still the one to do the part time work at night as a freelance writer and ghostwriter to some people. Till 2am every night.

I am still the one to think of ways for more income and took up a webmaster course so we could also offer web design to some of our clients.

And I. Am. Tired.

Sick and tired.

I feel so shackled to this whole draggy sucky life.

I know I am a mother of two so I should not be whining but counting my blessings, bla,bla,bla…well, I don’t donkey hairy balls’ care what you think.
This is my blog so I can whine, grunt, grumble, mumble, bitch all I want. You don’t like it, get lost.

A few days ago, another mother was complaining about the unfairness of how her husband gets to go off to some cycling event for hours while she don’t even get to go off anywhere for 10 minutes, much less hours!

Yes, life sucks hairy donkey balls. It sucks so bad, it never is fair. If life is fair, women would not be the ones solely responsible for a child since inception while the father is merely the sperm donor. And all that crap about the sperm donor supporting the whole family is bullshit. Many families are now double income families. So if the wife also brings home the bacon, why is it that she gets to do everything else at home too?

Like in my case. I go to work, I have an income to support the family. I pay the bills. And still, I have to do every thing that a homemaker has to do.

Or that woman whose husband went off cycling for 7 hours. She’s an entrepreneur and she runs a pretty successful business and her income is higher than her husband’s BUT this means she’s always busy AND yes, she also still has to do all the housework and child care. The husband? He gets to come back, relax, wait for dinner to be served, watch football and yes, go cycling for hours if he feels like it.

See? Life is NEVER fair to a woman. NEVER.

Sometimes I wonder what’s the point of all this. We work ourselves to the bone caring for the family, earning a decent income, and in the end, our kids may decide to dump us at the old folks home and we just die a lonely death amongst other abandoned old folks.

Seriously.

What is the point?

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Then, comes the iPad, the revolutionary Apple tablet computer. OMG. I was hooked, line and sinker. I wanted one really, really badly. We are talking about a small computer, the size of a netbook but thinner without the keyboard and yes, fully touchscreen. How cool is that?
So, there I was lusting after it on ebay and casually bidding for it when I won in one of my bids. Yep, it’s meant to be.I got an iPad 64gb with wifi and 3G capabilities. I was elated.
Nah, here’s my new toy…

Streamyx SUX big time. And it is time that some other bigger, better companies give them real competition…

I mean all the broadband packages by Maxis and Digi really does not cut it. NOT at all. Those are like child’s play.

And don’t even get me started about WiMax. It is SAID to be fast and all that jazz but in the end it’s just empty talk. Many places still can’t get it and yes, those living in the upper floors of high rise buildings also won’t be able to use it.

So, now, how?

We are stuck with Streamyx. They need to end this monopoly or else their services will NEVER EVER improve. Sigh.

It takes me 10 blardy freaking minutes to log into this blog.

It takes me even more blardy freaking minutes to do something with my money making sites such as changing themes, adding the adsense, setting up the SEO,testing the loading of the theme, deleting spam comments, adding links…etc. You know, all the work required to keep a website going and updated. And I was in the midst of exchanging links with other earn money online bloggers.

Sigh. How to work like this, I ask you?

So, ONCE AGAIN, stupid, blardy effing SLOW streamyx SUX big time! Damn.

• Streamyx gives me ULTRA SLOW internet connection ALL THE TIME. The only time the speed is up is when I called 100 and make a big huge fuss.
• Then my handphone decides to act up and go all strange on me by activating the wifi needlessly or disconnect the phone function for no reason or jump to some other function on its own.
• Finally, my laptop decides to go crazy and acts like some old man who can’t get it up as it clunks and whirrs and whatever but takes AGES to start-up. If that’s not bad enough, it hangs every once in a while and if I want to do something fast, it purposely slow down and a simple task such as adding photos to my blog takes me hours.

So, you see. These are all by-products of technology. And they aren’t exactly making life easier for me. Instead, they are giving me endless hours of stress.

Arrrgggghhhhh….

Once again, Streamyx SUCKS. And the only way to improve the performance is to harass them ALL the time. Which means, I have to spend more time calling them up, listening to the stupid recorded to press 1 for this, press 2 for that, then the irritating TM messages read by some bored sounding woman, then the music while put on hold and then some technician who will get on and ask about the modem, the computer and everything else but to rectify their problem..which is LOUSY broadband speed. After being downright mean and bitchy with them for about 10 minutes, then they will only reset the port and the speed will be better. A bit.

The next day, it is back to square one all over again. I wonder how many times I have to call them before they permanently fix the blardy problem.

Anyway, my laptop is in the hospital for awhile, thanks to some virus or other. I think. Which means I am laptop-less for awhile. Of course, I can always use hubby’s precious Macbook to do my online work…but then that comes with another set of problems, I have not used an Apple for years and after so many years of using Windows, it was a hassle when I kept pressing the wrong shortcut key using the Mac. And I don’t want to be accidentally deleting folders on his laptop…

Sigh.

Now my phone also acting up. And I don’t have $$ to replace it. Not now when I have to spend $$$$$$ on things for the new baby.

Sigh.

Maybe I can ditch the handphone and be uncontactable. Hah. But then how can one go through life without a handphone nowadays? How do I call my hubby to come fetch me if I feel sick? Or how to call for help if tyre puncture? And our public phones are absolutely hopeless, I tell you.

Technology. We can’t live without ‘em, we suffer because of ‘em.

From a PR3 to a N/A…

And I didn’t even do any paid posts for so long already…

Niamah!

Oh well, but then I have not been really paying this blog much attention and the traffic is terrible…piddly, if you can call it that…

Sigh…luckily I don’t rely on this blog to earn money online or else gone already lah…pheww…

Better go check up all my other money-making sites NOW.

Heck, it is your right to do whatever you want and even start a second Sky Kingdom and I won’t even care.

Look, I am not interested in your religion, I never will and I don’t care if I burn in hell for the rest of eternity!

So what if you think your religion is the greatest one on earth?

So what if you think you are doing me a favour by trying to get me to convert to your religion?

FFS, you think I have nothing better to do than to listen to all your preaching and your insistence that I follow the ‘right path’?

So, I like to go down the ‘wrong path’ and even all the side roads and broken trails and back roads. Heck, I even take the highways, the freeways, the small lorongs and the alleyways. It is my blardy choice to do so and who invited you to butt your ugly hairy nose into this?

Gawd, I really hate it when I have to encounter such zealous religious pricks who can’t get it into their thick heads that NOBODY give a damn about their religion! It is not enough that they talk nonstop about their religion to me but to hound me endlessly to join their sect is way, way too much already!

And yes, I am calling whatever religious organisation you are in a sect because only a sect would go around harassing innocent (ahem!) un-pious people like me! Non-stop. Every blardy fuzking day.

WTF! If I am so religious, you think I’d sit here quietly and listen to all your crappy rubbish? I’d probably be spending the rest of my days in a church/temple/whatever-worship-place and not sit here listening to your shit.

So, shut up already, get lost and go pray to your God!